The Letter

I received a letter from the insurance company today informing me that some tests had been approved to be done at the hospital. I was unaware of any tests that I was suppose to have. Then I read the letter all the way through. It was a pre-authorization letter for CT-Scans of my thorax, abdomen and pelvic regions. My oncologist had ordered them and they needed to be preapproved. To say that I am bummed out would be an understatement. I just wanted all of that nightmare to be behind me and never have to look back or even think about it. I just want to go on with life and forget that I ever had cancer. The last time I had any kind of a scan done was in September of last year. It was a PET scan then. They are more expensive than the regular CT scan but I was covered by three different health insurances back then. Now I only have Medicare part A and Blue Cross/ Blue Shield.

I suppose I should be grateful that the oncology department is keeping tabs on me.All the other people that were fighting cancer at the time I was; that would sit in the same room as me; that would have conversations with me; that were supposedly fighting cancer that could be cured; they are all gone. They lost their battles. True many of them had been fighting their battles for many years already. Some had fought battles and had been free of cancer for many years but it came back and it won.

I am grateful that I have had another year; another year to garden, another year to travel but more importantly another year to be with my family. Another year to see 3 new grandbabies! Another year to enjoy time with my son, Steve and his lovely wife, Diane. Another year! I have been cancer free for another year That is a blessing! I have now been cancer free for three years! My tests are scheduled for this Thursday at 8AM. I will find out the results when I see the PA on Monday of next week.
Here is hoping and praying that I will be granted another year without cancer!