A Day at Home

After spending the last three days at the hospital it is good to spend a day at home. The trip to the ER on Sunday proved to be a good thing in more ways than one. First because I found out that I did not have a heart attack or heart damage from the chemo drugs. I did not have any more blood clots either. I learned that I am trying to do too much and that I have to be more patient for my body to recover. I have to back off on the throttle and realize that even though I may feel good my body is working very hard to fight this cancer This is a very hard task for me as I have always been a hard worker. That is something that i have brought with me from my childhood and it has been a part of my life for 50 years.

Monday was the day for Rituxan therapy and along with that came the Benadryl and the Zantac. They have backed off on the Benadryl to 25 mg as it knocks me out for two days and drops my heart rate down to 50-54 bpm. I think this routine is actually harder on me than the chemotherapy. I have been more side effects since being on the Rituxan and have not felt as well.

I had my Chemotherapy yesterday and it went well. It was hot and humid yesterday and so Beatrice came home with me to help me put in the air conditioner. Boy what a relief that has been.
The oncology nurse took a look at my lab work and suggested that I get more fluids, I agreed, and so I waited until fluids in the last bag finished. It was a saline solution so it helped to raise my sodium levels which were low. My protein levels were low in my blood and so I need to get more protein in my diet as well. Maybe that is why I feel so hungry all the time. I just want to eat and eat and eat. This diet thing is a real challenge but I am learning. It reminds me of fine tuning a car to purr like a kitten. I wish my body came with an owner's manual with a trouble shooting guide- oh wait- I have one it is called "The Word of Wisdom"! It calls for more meat when you have excess of hunger. It calls for whole grains and fruits and vegetables and herbs.
I just need to have a dip stick to tell me how much I need but I guess that is covered in my blood work, maybe its not as good as a dip stick but at least I can see what direction I need to go. Perhaps that is my very own Liahona! Heavenly Father sure takes very good care of me and provides me with the very best. How richly blessed I am to have the Gospel in my life and to know that I have a Heavenly Father and an older brother ( Jesus) who care for me so much to give me the very best. It reminds me of some scriptures in the Sermon on the Mount.
The first is in Matthew 6; verses 25-33 and the second one is in Matthew 7 ; verses 6-11. Yep, they truly love and care for me and each of us if we invite them into our lives. Until you invite them you can never know such joy and of their great love and care for us. Hold onto Their love and promises and They will walk you through the darkest hours of your life of this I can testify.