From the Frying Pan into the Fire

I thought that once the cancer treatment was through that I could regain my health but it is not meant to be. Another set back in my health has me stressing out all over again. I just want life to get back to normal, the way it was before all of these health problems came upon me. I should not complain because I know there are people out there that have it much worse than I do. I should be focusing on the positive and not the negative but the negative is before me in undeniable clarity.

This coming week I will be going in for surgery to have a portion of my colon removed as well as having some other problems that have cropped up repaired. Today I was suppose to go down to the wound ostomy clinic so that they could mark on my abdomen the best place to put a stoma. I didn't go because I came down with a bad cold yesterday and have felt really rough all day today. The wound ostomy nurse assured me that there would be enough time on the day of my surgery( Thursday) to get things all marked off. I'm glad that I didn't go today because it would have only increased the stress to have a target painted on my abdomen all week long. I need to let go and let God handle all of this as I am not doing a very good job of it.
I guess I should prepare for the worst and hope for the best at least that way I can't get too disappointed if things do not go well. I wonder when this trial will end. I wonder if life will ever return to or even be somewhat normal. I am ready for this to all end.