I have been thinking about the CT scan that I will have this afternoon and what the outcome of it will be. As I have done so I realized that if I were to get unfavorable news that it would open me up for discouragement and depression and so I have been thinking of ways to put things in their proper perspective.
One way that I have visualized it it to take a piece of paper and fold it in half.
On the right side I would list all the things that I would normally be doing at this time of the year. Planning my garden, spring cleaning, channeling all the snow melt away from the buildings, service projects, genealogy and the list goes on. On the left side of the paper is the cancer. It is there but it doesn't consume the entire side of the paper. It involves the treatments , the tests and lots of rest. It is not the driving force in my life.
I then thought of these motorcycles with the side car. I am in the drivers seat. The cancer is in the side car. I point my life in the direction that I want to go and I go there. Sometimes the cancer may be sitting in the sidecar and hopefully sometimes it will choose to vacate the seat( go into remission).Until there is a cure for Follicular Lymphoma I may have to deal with that annoying occupant. It may slow me down and I'll have to take more time out from my journey but I cannot let it stop me from going forward. I am in the drivers seat and I will go forward.
Posted by Colletta at 7:20 AM
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