Emotions on a Roller Coaster

My emotions have been on a roller coaster this past week and I really need to press the e-stop to get them off that wild ride. Being tired doesn't help them keep under control either.
I have been having sharp, shooting pain in the right arm this past week and have not slept well because of it. This morning I woke up to find that my right arm was more on the purple side while the left arm and hand were pale white. It was obvious that something wasn't right and so I went into the ER to have it looked at. There was no mistaking the differences in color. The nurse took my o2 levels in both arms and they read close to the same. The doctor checked for blood clots and swollen areas in the arm and shoulder but didn't find anything so he told me to just keep an eye on it to make sure that it doesn't swell, get hot , or so that I don't run a fever. So for now I have one purple arm and one pale white arm. It could have something to do with the fact that the port is in the right chest wall but as of Thursday it was still working correctly. So who knows.

Brian called me last night and asked if he could come in for a visit. I told him that I had had a tough day and that I wasn't in a very good mood. He came anyway and he surprised me with a bouquet of flowers. I think he misses me. This is only the second time in our thirty six years that he has given me flowers. The first time is the day he left for a 6 month cruise while he was in the Navy. We talked about my lab results and I showed him the paperwork from the hospital. It helped to be able to share my feelings with him and not have to compete with a T.V.
I am having a hard time with inactivity. I can't stand sitting around. I want to be up working. I've been doing a lot of baking and cooking but I want to be able to go out and shovel the snow and clean the snow off the roof and do the chores and clean the barn and go back to work. I can't hardly wait for dr. Tim to release me from these restrictions.Maybe I'll volunteer to go clean the streets back east!